08/01/2020

Comfort Zones

As I sit down to type this, it's a cold Wednesday evening. The sun has set on us, the cats are going stir crazy(for anyone new to my ramblings, we have six of them) and I've come down with a lovely case of Cold+, for want of a better way to describe something halfway between a cold and the flu. I'm wearing a Sonic the Hedgehog set of pyjama bottoms, t-shirt and socks. The heating is up and the music is down(Surprise surprise, it's hedgehog related music I'm listening to but I'm feeling like crap), but quietly playing in the background. I can't stand the sound of silence but I have a pounding headache from all the coughing. I feel a need to just retreat into a comfort zone, and I wish I'd had this before the holidays because firstly it'd be out of the way and done with and secondly, I don't get paid sick leave so every day I'm off, I'm getting poorer.

To pass the time, I've been playing games that don't take much effort. Amusingly enough, I'm not playing any Sonic games right now - Town of Salem has been reinstalled, and I've been piss-arsing around on GTA 5 on my PS4. I don't really want to play anything that requires much thought or effort; ToS I've just been a gobby little bitch in chat and GTA has been a case of driving around, running people over and getting chased by the police. I also took the time to reinstall C&C: Red Alert for the first time since upgrading my computer to an AMD CPU and Win10(I hate Win10 on a good day) and it's been good fun just playing as the Russians, getting a Mammoth Tank rush on the go.

It's not just computer games I've been messing around with. I enjoy tabletop games too (as do a few of my friends in Team Tuxedo - go ahead and ask Squirrel what he's currently working on!) and a model railway in N gauge. The railway is very much a work in progress, but it's a semi-permanent setup(5'x3' board with the rails firmly attached, but is made to put on top of other tables as opposed to a proper baseboard which is left up) and I currently don't have the strength to either move the railway around, or put any scenery on it(because I have to put it away after each session, the buildings and suchlike are designed in such a way to be able to be removed from the baseboard and put safely away to avoid damage) so I've been resorting to watching YouTube videos and reading magazines to scratch the railwaying itch.

Board games on the other hand are by definition a social interaction activity. Feeling a lot like a cold rice pudding means I don't really want to be sociable and pass this on to anyone, so much like with the railway I've been spending a lot of time reading, revisiting old games and discovering new ones. As an example, I'm a big fan of Gaslands. It's a cheap entry into wargaming - get a book, some toy Matchbox/Hot Wheels cars, and pretty much away you go. Think Mad Max as a board game. It's great fun but the issue I've had is finding opponents local to me so I've put it on the back burner.
Which kinda brings me nicely onto the newest game to come from its creator, A Billion Suns. It's another space combat game, but this one has a few interesting twists that have piqued my interest. I'm definitely going to keep my eye on it, and I'm either going to 3D print my own models for it or re-use my X-Wing stuff.

The point I'm trying to make is, we're all sad bastards. If you're sat there reading this thinking I'm a sad bastard, then turn it into a shirt and let me wear the shit outta it. I don't overly care what others think of my hobbies(Mirtai said I have so many hobbies that one of them is... collecting hobbies) and you shouldn't care too. Surround yourself with people that don't care. Those that mind don't matter, and those that matter don't mind.
Unless you're a paedo or similarly unhinged individual. Get help, you sick fucks.

Embrace your favourite past times. You never know when you're going to feel all ikky and grotty and need that safe space to retreat into. And on that note I'm going to slink off downstairs to harass Mirtai and see if I can steal the TV for some more GTA V.

Dream big,
~MoD.

Parting shot: Single player games that don’t require internet are going to be extremely valuable during the apocalypse.

01/01/2020

Go Back To Zero

So I've been wanting to write a blog for a while now. I've written one on and off over the years, be it this one, a LiveJournal, something for a wargaming show... Usually the content goes down well, but RL tends to rear its head once in a while and certain projects get put on the back burner.

If you're still with me at this point, you're probably looking at that first paragraph thinking "dude, the first part is meant to be upbeat to pull readers in!" and you're right, you're absolutely right! But then again I've never been one to submit clickbait articles in any shape or form and that's the way it's going to stay.

So hi there, I'm MoD(yep, it's an acronym). This very blog has been a home for me on and off, and looks like we're back on again! I've wiped all the older entries and we're going to have a fresh start with rabid writings and occasional rants.
I intend for this to be a diary of sorts; I'm throwing myself more and more into livestreaming and RL is heading in a particular direction with my partner of 9 1/2 years, Mirtai.We're about to embark on the most amazing whirlwind adventure yet and it frightens me, it scares me, but the possibilities are endless and while I'm hesitant to go down that particular road it's looking ever more likely that this is a path the pair of us are going to have no choice but to embrace.

Now if you're reading this within a day or two of its publishing, you'll have most likely come from my Twitter account. I'll have mentioned in a livestream or two that big changes are coming, and I'll wager some of you are putting the clues together. If you do know, please keep it to yourself for now. If you don't then within a couple of months, all will become very clear to you! I will reveal all in a future stream of Euro Truck Simulator 2, which is where I do the vast majority of my RL news.

"So, MoD," I hear you ask, "if ETS2 is where you do a lot of your rambling about Real Life stuff, what's the point of this?"
Well sometimes I just like to write. I'm far more articulate with the pen than the tongue, always have been. Sometimes I just like to sit down and have a good ol' rant or discussion about a topic that's on my mind. Part of it is wanting to give people an insight into my life in a manner that I can control - I'm happy for people to get to know me, but I've had one too many invasion of privacy over the years, so it's going to be on my terms as much as possible. Part of it is I might be wanting to get all excited over upcoming content for a game I enjoy. Part of it is just enjoying writing.

I could go on, but alas this was meant to be a brief "Hi I'm back" and I've now started on my sixth paragraph. I haven't even mentioned how often I'm going to try and update this! For now, I'll love you and leave you to your own devices, and leave you hanging as to when the next entry will be.

Dream big,
~MoD1982.

Parting shot: Square Enix, you really don't need to hype the FFVII Remake any more by "accidentally" leaking the upcoming demo. The hype train is well and fucking truly in motion by this point.